When I received the call from my Mom and heard, "Fred, we received terrible news today." My heart sunk. I wept over the phone with my Mom. I remember the feeling I had. It was almost as if I was punched in the stomach. I have always been close to my sister. She and I have been together for all but two years of my life. For the first time, I felt vulnerable. For the first time, I thought, how could this happen? This was the most difficult news I have ever received.
As I have processed this news and the reality of my sister's diagnosis, I am reminded of some of the posts that I have written in this blog previously. It was almost as if God was preparing me for this news. God makes it very clear in His Word (Job 5:7): "Man is born for trouble as surely as sparks fly upward." In other words, adversity will come to a person's life and God allows it to happen.
Since God has allowed my sister to experience this disease, and He has allowed our entire family to grieve and experience this with her, then He certainly has a purpose for it. God does not do anything without a purpose. No matter what God has done throughout history, He has had a special plan. At the end of each day of creation, we read in Genesis 1 that, "He saw that it was good." Every person that has ever been created, God says are "fearfully and wonderfully made." These are two examples of the fact that God never makes a mistake. Even in my sister's disease, He has a design, He has a purpose.
In light of that, we as a family have prayed that God would reveal His plan to us. I am also praying, personally, that God will minister to my own heart. Ultimately, we long to see Jesus glorified through this journey that we are on. I am trusting God for complete healing for my sister. In addition, I am asking God to sanctify me more wholly as I long to understand more of God's character through this journey.
We, as a family, are in the process of being inside the Refiners fire. We are being pressed, stretched and tested through this journey. I am praying that we experience what Job says in 23:10, "But He knows the way that I take, when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold." I want to experience all that God has purposed for me through this journey with my sister. I look forward to sharing these insights through this blog. I want to come forth as gold.
In closing, I want to encourage those of you in the midst of a trial, open yourself to the Holy Spirit's work in your life. May the Lord meet you in your valley. May you experience the height and depth of the love of Jesus. Oh how He loves you and me, He gave His life, what more could He give.
Jesus, show me Your way. Have your way in me.